How many of you have had to re-live things in your life that were OK, good, great, terrible, horrifying, and yet you might feel like maybe you were your best self during some of that time? If you can’t handle it, don’t write a book because you will re-live it! As a young mother of two, when my oldest was in school, my toddler and I would paint, make chair rails with wall paper border, cook, clean, and plant tulips all over the yard. We lived on a quaint ranch where wild flowers grew abundantly, and the tulip bulbs from Holland made our house look like a fairy tale.
Yes, I did cook. They may not have been the greatest meals, but I cooked them. Enrolled my middle son in a Catholic preschool, went to soccer games, stopped at the 7 for a slippery! (aka 7eleven Slurpee) Young love is fragile, and you are always guessing and wondering if the fairy tale you had always dreamed of was present. One day I will never forget, I was giving the baby a bath – he LOVED the bath. He was always splashing and loved the duck wash cloth. So, needless to say, I looked like a mess with hair everywhere, drenched with water and baby wash when my first love walks in. He looks at our baby and looks at me and says, “God you’re beautiful“. I remember turning to kiss him, thinking he never comments on how I look when I try, but here I am a wet mess and this is the moment? If I could talk to that young girl again, I would tell her life is filled with moments. Some moments that can seem so simple, are actually the glue that holds everything together.
Do I regret making the choice to leave? No. I think you can experience things for a moment, awhile, or a life time. The knowledge that comes with it helps you make better life choices next time. Or you could know deep inside that there is a part of you that will always need to be a little wild, a little free, and the right person will respect that about you. That’s real love to me. Acceptance of the good and bad, whether right or wrong. This is your hero. He will save you every time, love you, understand every part of you. He will make everything okay. He will help you figure out who you really are, which is the greatest gift of all. Then it will be okay for our princess to put the mask back on once and awhile. After all, who doesn’t love a little mystery?