You are not what went wrong in my life, You are what saved me…

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Standing to my left is my oldest son and he IS what saved me.  Drew Barrymore screams in this movie, “When will this job ever be over?”  The true answer is NEVER.  You will always want to take care of them as the Mother no matter how much you fight it and no matter how many times you tell yourself to let go.  For me it just won’t happen.  We are like the Titanic!  I will never let go, and they won’t either.  The bond between a Mother and her son is so huge if you think about it too long your heart may explode.

Comparing this movie in my blog is so ironic considering I am writing a book about it, well sort of about it.  Watching this clip made me think back to how hard it was then, but yet I survived!  I have it pretty cushy now and sometimes you have to push the reality check button!

When I started down this book journey I thought I would never make it to the end and here we sit just two short chapters away.  I re-read most chapters every other day, I tweak them, I revise, I make changes to the flow of the story.  It’s alot like life itself.  We are constantly checking ourselves trying to improve, wanting to be better, healthier, and stronger.  The love inside grows more everyday, and we constantly find ways to give more of ourselves to the people we love most.  For me I am happy to be somewhat crossing the finish line, but a little sad as well.  It has been a wild ride!  Like raising kids and having a family – it’s pure hell while you are doing it, but once you get close to the end you feel sad?  Insert LOL.  What the heck is wrong with us?  I should be putting my party hat on!  Instead, I’m looking at baby pictures of my youngest knowing he too will be off to college soon since he is approaching his junior year in High School this fall!  Did I just say that about my baby?  Crap!  Bring on the Valium!  I cannot even think about it for long or I start to panic!  WTF?  Seriously!

Men.  Father’s have it so easy!  Damn them.  This is all their fault!  They are so laid back about it all.  Bye son!  See you in four years!  How do they do it?  They are constantly giving the wife the eye roll when she breaks out the kleenex, like, oh please, it’s just another day, you will be fine!  Admit it…Sometimes you just want to hit them over the head with a baseball bat and scream WAKE UP!  Feel something dammit!  I think they do.  However men have shared their wives with kids for a long time and when it comes time for the couple to be the focus of life they are really looking forward to it.  HA!  No one tell my husband that it is NEVER truly over for me.  I have been doing this since I was nineteen years old and I just don’t know any other way.  I am however WILLING to give it the old college try….perhaps the Bahama’s after we drop Carter off at college….sipping on a pina colada….wait, maybe it won’t be so bad!  I can picture it….Just BREATHE.

XOXO,

The Mask of the Doctor’s Wife…

Author: Stephanie Carter Taylor

Small business owner since 2003. Trying to achieve great health and overcome adversity! Recently I was told to take a year off from physician marketing consulting, to work on my health goals. I really had no intention of following this advice, with a survivor mentality, and a hard head, I did not start making changes until my visit to the Neurologist. His words rocked my world, and I am writing about that experience. As life always happens, this is when I landed the book deal. These blogs are the first step in marketing. They automatically go to Twitter and Facebook, and email if you sign up. Leave me your comments and ideas, they are directly emailed to me, or click on the blogger Facebook page to leave public comments!

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