Day 2 of HOT yoga and healing! Slowly climbing out of the hole of grief!

I’m not going to lie! Day #2 with very sore muscles was rough. I was afraid. PTSD….Blood disorder…would this slower strengthening my muscles spike a bleed? Was I asking for another bleed? The flow class was definitely harder, but you keep moving! Slower stretching yoga for bleeders, fear of the joint/muscle bleeds are so much harder. Somehow I have NO fear!

None of this matters…

If you make a promise to a girlfriend, it’s so not #girlfriendcode to be a no show. No way baby…I value my friendships so I’m IN!

The beginning meditation/prayer period is so cool! Candlelight, concentrate on your breathing and magically, dare I say it? It feels better than that 5:00 cocktail.

This was a much slower class than the night before but holding the poses that I haven’t achieved in a long time, however I made it! It takes a great deal of balance, and strength to do this. Thanks Mom for putting me in the ballet! #spotsomething and hold your pose. I’m going to brag, the handstand, legs fully up is really hard! I did it, and held it for what seemed like forever. #thankyoucorey, our angel in heaven.

This morning I weighed 3 pounds less. Can’t wait for tomorrow’s weigh in. Being a savvy girl whatever I didn’t burn off, I’ll zap with the Zerona in MY clinic tomorrow. #perfectplan! #totallycheating!

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In other news, my husband is learning how to unload the dishwasher. This is ground breaking news! I came home to…well, I can’t tell all the secrets. I will say the dishwasher was unloaded! #greathusbands

Also, I hired a fantastic young man for my social media, computer stuff, articles, editing, PR, and he is the real deal. For so many reasons that I cannot disclose. He does have a college degree, but more importantly he has hustle and refuses to take money from his Mom. His Father has not been with him for 9 years. He watched his Mom struggle so much after his death, he and his Brother wouldn’t dare ask for a dime, they needed to take care of her, the way she cares for them. #integrity. Way more important than any piece of paper. #brave

Finally, this mask of the Doctor’s Wife will be going at it again tomorrow night, even if it kills me. I won’t give up.

Spoiler alert…This woman is headed to a fabulous new location in a MOB. (Medical Office Building) next to one of our hospitals! I’m all in, and I won’t quit. If I fail, okay, but I know in #myheart that I gave it my ALL. #thankyoujesus

I don’t usually share these blogs to my personal Facebook page, but this time I am. #beingheldaccountable

Gal pals – cherish each other, cry with each other, cheer each other on, and love unconditionally! Dudes come and go. Girl friends #stay!

Dedicated to all friends, but especially Silly Sarah, she gave her soul to me when she saw me walking into my office crying in mid September. She didn’t have to stop and hug me, she didn’t have to put a “I love you” card on my car with deep sympathy for my loss, she didn’t have to help me repair a mailbox, or figure out eBay for stuff I needed. She didn’t say let me know if there is anything I can do for you. She just did, and I wasn’t afraid to accept it. #payitforward. #goodkarma!

Great Music! Inspiring!

https://youtu.be/b7k0a5hYnSI

Hot Yoga!

I did my first class of HOT Yoga which in Midlothian Virginia is centrally located next to the ABC store! Location…location! SMART! #greatmarketing

When you have no other choice to survive through a tragedy, what do you do? All answers apply when dealing with the sudden loss of a loved one. Not one is right or wrong but, I have personally done all of the below!

1. Work…Work…Work! Keeping busy keeps the blues away.

2. See the shrink every week! Mine believes my family could actually be Dr.Phil’s greatest challenge.

3. Drink Vodka with grape favored Sugar/calorie free Gatorade! Yummy! It’s a health drink. After the denial phase of grief, (no carbs) this is medicinal. #allthingsinmoderation. OR NOT. I’m capable of doing both.

4. Surround yourself with gal pals who understand. Not ones that are going to dismiss you or avoid the “ugly topic”. Seriously *uck those people who say it’s been five months, you aren’t over it yet? Well, he was my Brother for 38 years SO…. This will help you tremendously graduate to the ANGRY phase. I got lucky, my girlfriends have been amazing.

5. Work things out with your higher power, whatever that is! For me, back to bible study class. #truth #unbelievable, but still TRUE.

6. Exercise! Yoga can be so spiritual, I used to do it and I don’t know why I stopped! Grabbed my gal pal and went the local HOT yoga. The beginning of the class the mediation portion. I call it my prayer portion.

I’m going to share my prayer. God said it was OK, so here goes – Jesus, thank you for today, I praise you. PLEASE make me strong again. I will do the work I just need your guidance. If at all possible, let me feel my Brother giving my strength, cheering me on…”you go girl”…give me strength in my mind and body to be extremely strong for those around me that need me. I have commitments and I must honor them. Please bless my family, I am doing this as much for them as I am myself.

Second portion of HOT yoga is basically, well, *ell! But I made it through the intermediate class, and didn’t cry until the end, when we did the final mediation and muscles shaking, I made it!

Thank you Corey. Cold towel over my face, eyes closed, I heard you, I saw you. I felt proud. Tears of joy!

7. Self-care. Extremely important! Blog, journal, Xanax, sleep, get your hair and nails done! Buy something special for yourself. Never make a long to do list that isn’t achievable or you will feel worse. Only take on what you can really handle! Except that some days that may be nothing.

8. If you are married or in a relationship let that person help you and don’t feel guilty that your house isn’t perfect right now. Your husband/wife will understand.

Thank God for my husband. The November trip to Turks and Caico’s was bittersweet.

I love you,
https://youtu.be/KNZVzIfJlY4

Until next time the Mask of the Doctor’s Wife is getting her *hit together with a little help from her friends, and HOT yoga!

I’m taking back my life…

I’ve given in love to so many, in love, despite others thinking I was earning my “Girl Scouts badge, just for recognition”. It was easy for me, right? Do people have early

Dementia? How do I have all these photos and memories?

Oh right, I Just pull out my checkbook…(alright, money helps but let’s just be real here people). I am only one person. I am just one person. My son Embrey is simply awesome. He just doesn’t know it. He will. I know he will find his heart again.

My LOVE Cody!

Carter, my youngest son, my LOVE. Every fish you and Gary ever caught is on Facebook, every trip, every dinner, and everything. #soloved

Thank God for my husband Gary Taylor!

Love is love, my nieces Mom celebrates with me. #terriblehairday

My niece Katie. She is so beautiful! Tuesday is NOW my favorite day of the week!

The crease is bc it’s in my wallet forever…I got to see him fall in love…
My younger Brother! He always gave more than he received. His heart finally broke from his gifts, it’s tragedies like this that remind us to #payitforward

I opened a new business, officially on September 1st, on the 9th day my only Brother died.
Just do it! If you have never failed, you haven’t really tried!
It’s so true!

I’m a grandma again! X4!!! Awesome!!! Welcome home Precious baby girl! Thank You to my wonderful inherited family. #dan&ginger. You mean the world to us. You too #sam&jamestaylor❤️

And finally, you just have to take back your life! We never forget, we still grieve, but the beautiful memories remain. There are SO many. The heart never forgets, and the love remains.

Finally,

Your life is yours that God has given to you is a gift! Be who you are, live who you are…never be ashamed! It’s a gift!

***Disclaimer – video is at the bottom! Where is the damn Geek Squad? I mean really…

Seriously, without Corey Carter we need to hire someone! Apply within for remote control problems, computer hacks, smart houses run by stupid people (I speak for my husband Gary & I), and cell phones!

I still believe we can all love each other. ❤️

#lizcouch#sydneycarter#embreydavis#codydennis#carterdennis#yourfavkait#garytaylor#richardcarter#jacobcouch #matthewcouch

THANK YOU MY WOMEN! SO MANY! Blessed!

#emotionallynaked#annemossrogers#jennniferbowyer#sillysarah#nikkicabbinass#donnazocco#annesimmons#wendilverman#loriewilliams#lesliewright#ToniArabell#toomanygfstomention. I love you all!❤️

Click below bc I don’t know how to embed anything and as stated earlier…well, without Corey, we may all be going off the grid!

This is my personal song after nearly losing my crap today, bc a song came on the radio that Corey and I shared. I quickly changed the channel as not to lose my crap in front of my Princess, made it through dinner, dropped her off safely and then UGLY cried until this song came on….. Thank you Corey, I needed that kick in the ass that only you could give so sweetly.

https://https://youtu.be/xo1VInw-SKcyoutu.be/xo1VInw-SKc

No mask, just ME – as I am! I’m liking what I see.

-ST