Forgiveness for yourself? Is it true forgiveness or self gratification?

In the above picture, I am still wearing the mask, but NOT. I am truly happy most of the time. Do you forgive a toxic person for your own inner peace? Or is that selfish. These are the things I ponder.

My awesome happy, bear hug, positive, but calls me out on my own shit is not my biological Father. I still stand firm that blood doesn’t matter. He raised me. I am sure of his love with no doubt in my mind, but recently I have been praying about forgiveness.

My biological Father is a different story. I won’t shame him by name, but the childhood traumas are mostly gone now. How can I be one of God’s children without forgiveness? Maybe he will accept it or maybe he won’t. That part really doesn’t matter, I am doing it for me this time. Not because I want a relationship or because I need validation. I’m doing it because my eye’s are forever open of what I lived through and loved through in others. My Brother always loved me with all of his heart, he may not have always liked me or agreed with me but that is just life and the true nature of real love.

I feel a deep sense of conflict to this very day. I’m going to pray about it some more and then just give it up to the higher power that now guides me through this journey of grief, happiness, sadness, and early menopause! Ha!

Enjoy this week’s song. It is directly related to the walk we must all crawl…walk…and then RUN!

https://youtu.be/6X_C9E55CfM

OR…

https://youtu.be/LQeM3YCQh6s

This blog is dedicated to my Queen. Only she knows who she is!

Xoxo,

The Mask of the Doctor’s Wife…

Author: Stephanie Carter Taylor

Small business owner since 2003. Trying to achieve great health and overcome adversity! Recently I was told to take a year off from physician marketing consulting, to work on my health goals. I really had no intention of following this advice, with a survivor mentality, and a hard head, I did not start making changes until my visit to the Neurologist. His words rocked my world, and I am writing about that experience. As life happens, I ended opening a weight loss spa. These blogs are the first step in marketing. They automatically go to Twitter and Facebook, and email if you sign up. Leave me your comments and ideas, they are directly emailed to me, or click on the blogger Facebook page to leave public comments!

One thought on “Forgiveness for yourself? Is it true forgiveness or self gratification?”

  1. Do what works! Forgiveness can be healing! I cant say I’ve had a lot of experience with it though, but I have had a little! I do think it is beneficial and can certainly make things easier to cope with!

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