I’ve given in love to so many, in love, despite others thinking I was earning my “Girl Scouts badge, just for recognition”. It was easy for me, right? Do people have early
Dementia? How do I have all these photos and memories?
Oh right, I Just pull out my checkbook…(alright, money helps but let’s just be real here people). I am only one person. I am just one person. My son Embrey is simply awesome. He just doesn’t know it. He will. I know he will find his heart again.
My LOVE Cody!
Carter, my youngest son, my LOVE. Every fish you and Gary ever caught is on Facebook, every trip, every dinner, and everything. #soloved
Love is love, my nieces Mom celebrates with me. #terriblehairday
I’m a grandma again! X4!!! Awesome!!! Welcome home Precious baby girl! Thank You to my wonderful inherited family. #dan&ginger. You mean the world to us. You too #sam&jamestaylor❤️
And finally, you just have to take back your life! We never forget, we still grieve, but the beautiful memories remain. There are SO many. The heart never forgets, and the love remains.
Your life is yours that God has given to you is a gift! Be who you are, live who you are…never be ashamed! It’s a gift!
***Disclaimer – video is at the bottom! Where is the damn Geek Squad? I mean really…
Seriously, without Corey Carter we need to hire someone! Apply within for remote control problems, computer hacks, smart houses run by stupid people (I speak for my husband Gary & I), and cell phones!
I still believe we can all love each other. ❤️
THANK YOU MY WOMEN! SO MANY! Blessed!
#emotionallynaked#annemossrogers#jennniferbowyer#sillysarah#nikkicabbinass#donnazocco#annesimmons#wendilverman#loriewilliams#lesliewright#ToniArabell#toomanygfstomention. I love you all!❤️
Click below bc I don’t know how to embed anything and as stated earlier…well, without Corey, we may all be going off the grid!
This is my personal song after nearly losing my crap today, bc a song came on the radio that Corey and I shared. I quickly changed the channel as not to lose my crap in front of my Princess, made it through dinner, dropped her off safely and then UGLY cried until this song came on….. Thank you Corey, I needed that kick in the ass that only you could give so sweetly.
No mask, just ME – as I am! I’m liking what I see.
Take the time to smell the flowers.
Two months and five days ago my families world stopped. Yet, beautiful memories remain, and life slowly moves you forward.
This is hard stuff, we want desperately to go back, to watch the video memories. So, if it’s one of those days that you just need peace, watch the video but keep facing forward.
The sunlight feels good again, and getting out and JUST doing what you can every day is the only way through it. You just are, and you just must do it. It’s the only way to rejoin the living and smell some flowers along the way.
I have learned it’s important to just let the waves of grief come, that freight train is probably still coming around for a while. Then something odd happens, it’s not so bad, in some ways it has taught a valuable lesson.
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
My Brother is a beloved angel, and I now feel it’s okay to move on some. He is with me in spirit, and he would want to see me living my life. Easier said than done, however, we are all trying, hoping, and embracing positive change and unconditional love. This is how it is written and at one point in my life, I believed God was no longer listening to me. Time to change my tactics and instead of speaking, I am listening. Listening with true intention. This is a game changer.
My husband and I leave on a long-awaited vacation early tomorrow morning. With any luck, I’ll be laying on the beach in the sun by 2:00pm. We have both crawled, limped, and added crutches to get to this point. We need time alone together, the to-do list needs to stop, we just need to LIVE and not worry about if the tears will come, just accept that they will, and then move on to the early morning Bloody Mary. There is a God.
I would like to thank my countless girlfriends for holding me up. I would like to Thank Anne Moss, Donna, Nikki, Wendi, Nichole, Katie and many other family members for listening to my GUT cry, without knowing how to help me put together my heart again. My parents always prove to be so strong. I was grateful for this but mourned for them anyway. Sometimes the act of doing helps when there is nothing else to change an impossible situation. Thank you, Jennifer, for reminding me that God is listening and helping me turn down the chaos and noise inside my head. That was truly a remarkable gift, I think it’s what saved me. Thank you to everyone else who dragged me along and refused to accept NO as my answer.
This is US. My loving husband has carried me a long way. Our time together has become like a valuable commodity, this is my BIG takeaway, my big gift – finally time alone together. I can already feel the sand on my feet, and the neverending love in my heart. It grows more with every passing day. #marryakeeper
Yes. I feel guilty for every moment I get to enjoy, and my Brother is not here.
This is my niece. I’ve always wanted a girl to spoil. This girl is quite amazing. She shares my Brother’s DNA and she has a very cool Mom.
I may have never known this. I was so busy with my boys, that I forgot to see the gorgeous niece that was left for me, and her Mom. She is bright, smart, talented, she picks out the best shoes and makeup a girl can ask for. What makes her so special? That’s a hard one. She is everything my Brother was. However, she has a strong Moma that despite her mourning a deceased husband, father of her child, and she is coping and raising a great girl! I am privileged to see this happening.
Thank God. I thank him everyday for all of the gifts that have been given to me. I pray for our family. I pray for healing, and past arguments to be forgotten. We only have this one life….Let’s live it. Hell, let’s LOVE it!
Obviously, nothing is ever complete without a Billy Joel.
Thank you for listening ….
Still wearing the mask…perhaps it may come off soon, but for now…
The Mask of the Doctors Wife 😅
Grief….It really hurts every second of every day. Sometimes I can get through the day without crying.
I’m really angry. I really don’t want for this to be true. Some days, if I didn’t have work, I would rather just curl up in a ball and mourn.
He touched so many people’s lives with his happiness, jokes, tricks, and overall loving spirit. I’m angry because I just don’t feel it was his time to go. He worked at the same company for 18 years as head of their IT department. He was always available to help anyone who needed it. He was a natural giver. Every time something was wrong with my computer, cell phone, or remote control he would take my call and solve the problem! He loves his nephews and even let my son who was going through troubled times live with him. He gave money to others when he really didn’t have much to give. He showed me love, and compassion sometimes when I didn’t deserve it. Being 8 years older than him and 7 years older than my Sister, it made me the Mom sometimes. I now wish I had never complained about babysitting. I wish I had held on to him tighter. Tough to do with such a free spirit but I should have tried. The guilt is overwhelming. My husband is a Doctor, why didn’t we notice what was going on? Like most families, I guess you just pray that your gut is wrong. Probably my family won’t like this, but here goes, we have to talk about this.
He experienced with heroin, a bad batch that was laced with fentanyl. Five deaths occurred in a 48 hour period because of this. Virginia is the only state that does not grant immunity for the person that dials 911. Although I am very angry with this person and believe she does need to be accountable, that’s hard to do when you are using yourself. If she had called 911 right away maybe his life could have been saved.
My fifteen-year-old niece lost her Father, my sister and I lost a Brother, my Mom and Daddy lost a son. My boys lost the best Uncle who always made time for them. This is the cruelest punishment. Knowing I won’t see him this Thanksgiving or Christmas is absolutely unbearable to think about. We are a happy, close family and now we are no longer complete.
The system has got to change. This anxiety-ridden society that is keeping Americans overworked, overstressed, and self-medicating just to get through it all needs to change. But, how? By talking about it. By educating our children this new stuff coming into our country is not the weed we smoked in high school. Just beg your children not to try it. Tell them if they died, the whole family will forever be changed. Ask them the hard questions and become a detective to look for the signs. Stalk their cell phone and social media if you have too. Protect them, it’s your job as a parent.
My whole body is in pain. Grief will do that to you. I LOVE MY BROTHER TODAY AS I ALWAYS WILL. I refuse to let his memory die. The music below may seem inappropriate but it was the song that was playing when I saw him REALLY happy.
I love my new independence!
The great thing about opening something that is your own is that everything else appears so small. Men appreciate this because it’s less about what they can do for your you, and what you can do for yourself!
Little does he know, his money is your money, and my new money is mine. (For the new girls, this is your hero, he won’t care).
What he does care about is YOUR happiness? The keepers will always cheer you on! This is my case! Shameless plug – http://www.myzerona.com! It gets better, I am making money hand over fist! Why? #girlpower, that exceeds your wildest dreams! Woman want something to believe in, and I deliver that! My last client just lost 10 inches. WOW! I have figured this stuff out.
Just putting that out there! Keep in touch with me! Slendersolitionsbystephanie@gmail.com.
Just do it! Let me zap that belly. You will be very satisfied! No doubt! Call me! 💋804-901-7300.
This post is for women over forty! Not that I am 40? Nope still celebrating my fifth anniversary of 39.
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My new wake up time is giving me the “happy dance”! What’s really crazy is I used to gear my sleep schedule around my husband. If he worked the night shift and didn’t get home until 12:00am I stayed awake for him. If he didn’t get up the next day until 10:00, or okay maybe noon, I slept in or quietly answered emails on my phone, but I stayed by his side. My business back then was basically on autopilot and with just one teenager left at home, it wasn’t that big of a deal to be basically just the wifey and the Mom.
Now, that the business is retail, although by appointment only, I cannot sleep past 7:30am! I can lay there and toss and turn or I can get up and get moving. As long as I don’t wake up the sleeping King, it all works out! My to-do list brain is in full guilt mode if I don’t get up and get to it!
This is making me very happy to have the luxury to help inspire others and give back to the people that helped me out when I started my crazy entrepreneurship back in 2003! It’s nice when a client comes in, shares their goals and what they want to achieve. I can actually help them get there. This is putting a smile on my face every day, and suddenly the little things I used to worry about really don’t cross my mind much. Is my house still spotless? NO. Ask me if I still care? Not really, this OCD perfectionist is becoming quite chill…thanks to the new business, girlfriends, and Xanex! A winning combo if you ask me.
I know my kids have to be happier, even if they say they’re not, LOL…talk to me again after you turn 30. I am no longer obsessing and over-parenting grown adults! Yes, folks, I have overcome diversity. You didn’t read that wrong. I was overcoming adversity much earlier in life, but the switch has flipped and I’m just not going to feel guilty about it.
I haven’t added the music in awhile…So given these blessings, you will have to bere with me –
Why am I writing this?
I am sharing a very personal story, hopefully to help the people who are too afraid to try.
Ever heard of the phrase, “if you have never failed, you have never tried”? It’s SO true. Sticking your neck out and trying something new is so scary! Why would I choose to share my fears? I want to help people feel empowered, and sometimes, you just have to fake it until you make it. You just do…
No matter if you had the worst childhood or the very best, everyone gets scared at their next reinvention. We will ask ourselves, am I good enough? Do I deserve good things and happiness? The answer to the above is always YES. We are God’s children put on this beautiful earth to make a difference!
Above is a picture of me and my new grand-daughter. It was scary, I was full of worry…would the baby be ok? Would my step-daughter be ok? I didn’t sleep the night before our flight to go and welcome this child. Turns out Mom and baby are absolutely perfect! You see, I am secret OCD perfectionist. I worry about others sometimes more than myself, because my internal worries are SO scary!
I have recently, 20 days ago created a new business with a big loan! If you are anything like me, you forget your past success, you forget how you survived when others would have easily given up. You forget that you have gone down this path before. Some with huge success, some just OK, and some an utter disaster! The good news is I survived. I always have. Sometimes a near perfect childhood isn’t a blessing, sometimes it makes you stronger in a way that no one else can really understand.
I have a new medical weight loss spa…shameful plug #slendersolutions. Many have asked, why? Here’s why. I was blessed something in that no so great childhood, a fire, a perseverance, a good old fashioned…get up, dust yourself off and fight another day! That’s why!
I could tell a sad story, and more than likely at some point I will, but first, always first…Be brave enough, believe in yourself enough to try. What’s the worst that could happen? People at home aren’t sitting around judging our new Facebook page! Delusions of grander aren’t my thing.
What is my thing? The love a great man, loving my kids despite them running for their lives, and making people feel happy! Proud of what they have accomplished against all odds, when most would have given up! This #girlfriendcode runs deep.
So, in closing my girls – be bold, go where others are afraid to go, work hard, and most of all put yourself first! Just do it. It could change your life!
New business owner, but still the mask of the Doctor’s wife…
This is a story about true friendship that has lasted over 34 years, and why these childhood girlfriends are the BEST of all.
The picture above was taken two weeks ago. My greatest friend gave me the gift of coming and staying at my house for the whole weekend with my God Daughter. She is a crazy person having another baby at 40!! Or so I thought. Jemma is a beautiful girl and so lovely, it brought back great memories of being physically, happily tired, but not emotionally exhausted as they grow up.
We did haircuts, nails, Chuck E. Cheese (we loved the ski ball!), movies, great dinners, and WINE!
We remised about high school fun/torture, told funny stories, laughed and even cried. To all women out there – please listen to me! I’m so proud of her and all of her accomplishments, and she is so proud of mine. These are not sugar coated but said with real value. The #girlfriend code is so real and so sacred. We are like vaults for each other! No secret will ever be told. No jealousy, no “one upping” each other – EVER! It is the perfect combination of history, love, and something that should always be respected. It’s so special when it was time for them to leave, I felt sad.
I think women as we get older forget these cardinal rules of friendship, and even still believe you have to still have 500 close friends like in your twenties. That’s just crap! As we age, life is complicated, we have so much responsibility with family etc., that we forget Sister time is so important to our souls.
Husbands, boys, guys, and dude’s they come and go! True girlfriends stay. They are happy for your greatest days, and mourn for your bad ones.
Feel blessed if you have such a person in your life! Even if you now live 100 miles apart, a text, a phone call is a must. Sharing days events, crazy days at work…whatever it is…just talking to your best gal pal fills your heart like nothing else can.
Nikki, this is your snobby, too chatty friend letting you know that I love you. I will always protect you and your girls. I’ll help bury the dead bodies of anyone that hurts you. I’ll help you celebrate anyone that lifts you up. Always.
Your best friend, partner in crime, and STILL the mask of the Doctor’s wife…
We are off to the races! Saturday morning arrives and everyone scurries for the “to do list”! UGH…So easy for my husband – hit golf balls, work out, run errands? College boy is off to work (THERE is a silver lining), and Mom? Well, I’m going to make the bed, drink coffee, and then I’m going to blog, work, exercise, finish the to do list I didn’t finish from last week? Sigh…Say the hell to all of the above and go to the pool?
This is about as interesting as watching paint dry…Fear not it gets better! I am opening another new business! Yep, I’m risking it all for the sake of sanity and will actually be a retail spa/store owner in a few weeks to come. Only a HUNDRED things on THAT to do list, but hey, we all know my parents did not raise a quitter!
I have decided to make my menopausal Momas as thin as they were before childbirth or at least get the belly back in a two piece bathing suit! Why did I decide to do this? Hummm….Empty nest syndrome? I’m reinventing myself? All of the above but MOSTLY because I went through the process myself, had amazing results and decided I could do it better, and less expensive than my so-called competition! I also really enjoy happy women that feel good in their skin, no matter what age or life circumstance has led them into putting themselves FIRST. More details to come along with a grand opening….hint…go to : www.myzrona.com
The picture above shows my sexy Medical Director. I like him a lot!
The Teaser aka still The Mask of the Doctor’s Wife